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A Novel
John and Maryann live 5142 miles apart, in different countries,
they've never met physically however this doesn't stop them having an
intense and intimate relationship, the difference is, their relationship
is on a different level, it's conducted psychically. What happens next,
is romantically intense, intriguing and hilariously funny at times.
From the Author
There is a glossary at the rear of this book to aid understanding of
Mediums/Psychics and how they work. Although I am a
Spiritualist/Medium/Psychic, my goal is not to impose my views and
the meanings behind them. Whether you believe some incidents are
possible or not, just be open minded. This is a love story and
includes some of the characters concerned. I like to think of it as a
kind of hybrid. Any resemblance to any real person living or dead or
names, dates or places is purely coincidental as this book is a work
of fiction.
From the Inside Flap
"It was a very special moment for John's spirit was
awakening and he was opening up, I had touched and resonated with his soul. It was more than just cyber sex, more
than making love with someone you loved, it was blending
souls as soul mates do and it was an incredible moment for
the two of us. We both cried beautiful happy tears"
A Psychic Affair
5.0 out of 5 stars
What an Amazing Read :-), January 15, 2014
I found this book totally drew me in and couldn't wait to get to the next page to see what was going to happen!
Brilliant book - a must have read :)
Great read, it's not the usual romantic novel it's a bit of a cross genre
Great
read, it's not the usual romantic novel it's a bit of a cross genre
being informative and paranormal but it had me hooked, I would love it
if the author wrote a sequel as I would love to know how the characters
relationship goes I do hope the author does
Sarah65
Amazing read and was engrossed until I finished reading this book
Amazing
read and was engrossed until I finished reading, this book is more than
a novel it helps understand the psychic's world and has such depth of
feelings
Stella Matthews
Chapter Nine “I don’t know what to say”
Just
when I thought everything was so wonderful, and this happens all to often in
life, something changes and turns everything around. John told me Janet seemed
much better, he had been spending time with her and getting her out with the
house and having both Janet and her little girl around to use his pool. Natalie
was also spending time with her.
It
was mid October by this time and John always chatted to me every day and left
off-lines or comments, somehow and I
knew something was up, he was quiet and evasive. He was not his normal self. I
asked him what was wrong, he told me nothing. I knew this was not true, I felt
it; I sensed it there was something definitely wrong. Natalie came online and
we started chatting:
natalie30
“Hello
Maryann”
ME
“Hello
there”
natalie30
“Hi
have you just been chatting with my brother by any chance?”
ME
“Yes,
a moment ago why lol?”
natalie30
“How
did he seem to you?”
ME
“A
bit down”
natalie30
“OK”
ME
“He
said he didn’t have a good evening, are you worried about him?
natalie
30
“I
wanted to know how he would have been with you on here that’s all. I am a bit”
ME
“He
won’t talk much about it, he says it’s okay now but I sense he’s a bit down,
that’s the trouble with being a medium, I sense too much.
natalie30
“Did
you ask him about it?”
ME
“No,
he won’t talk about it, so no point in asking him”
natalie30
“Yes
John doesn’t like to talk too deep sometimes”
ME
“Yes,
I know”
natalie30
“Especially
if he is upset”
ME
“Oh
I know he was very upset”
natalie30
“Do
you really know what is wrong?”
ME
“Well,
I know it will be to do with Janet most likely”
natalie30
“I
was not sure if he would have told you about Janet”
ME
“Oh
he has”
natalie30
“I
am a little surprised, John doesn’t like talking about it, but it’s good that
he has told you”
ME
“Well,
I have shared things with him too”
natalie30
“I
need to talk to him properly, I will make sure he is okay”
ME
“I
know it’s causing him distress”
natalie30
“He
had a hard night, I got the call at the end of it. Has he really told you
everything?”
ME
“Well,
we have been chatting since February”
natalie30
“Oh
that’s been a while now, I didn’t know that. I wasn’t aware of you until a
couple of months ago. He has been very hurt but things are slowly getting
better”
ME
“Yes,
I know we have compared notes”
natalie30
“I
don’t know what to do with him lol, he can get so fragile at times”
ME
“I
know, he’s an Aquarian like me and stubborn and tenacious lol”
natalie30
“Well,
I will talk to him but I don’t want to upset him. I know what his problem is,
it’s just getting him to deal with it. Maryann will you be on messenger later?”
ME
“Most
likely why?”
natalie30
“I
have to go for now but if you want I will come on here later and talk to you
about this”
ME
“OK
well I shall be on chat later Natalie well I want to help him yes”
natalie30
“Yes,
I know you do, that’s very obvious to me. I can tell that you care for him”
ME
“He’s
been a good friend to me too”
natalie30
“Yes,
I hope so. May I ask a favor of you?”
ME
“Yes,
of course”
natalie30
“Don’t
say we have chatted about this, he wouldn’t like what we have been discussing.
I will come back later and if he is around here again let me know how he is”
ME
“OK
thanks Natalie you take care now”
natalie30
“You
too Maryann, chat soon”
I
could tell, what had happened must have upset him deeply and it was obvious
that his sister to whom he was so close was concerned, yet he had not said too
much to her and she was trying to find out. I didn’t want to say what I felt
had happened, being a psychic you know too much and it was not my place to
discuss this with his sister even if they were very close
natalie30
Hello
Maryann
“How
are you, have you spoken to John today?”
ME
“No,
I haven’t”
natalie30
“Has
he not been on?”
ME
“No
not to me why how is he?”
natalie30
“I
went round there last night like I said and he is not too good I have to say”
ME
“But
no I don’t know how he is, what did he say?”
natalie30
“Yes,
I found out everything”
ME
“Yes,
I know too
natalie30
“I
take it he told you about it?”
ME
“Yes,
he did”
natalie30
“Well,
we just spoke about it for a while”
ME
“Did
it help him?”
natalie30
“I
don’t think so he is confused”
ME
“Did
he say why?”
natalie30
“He
doesn’t know what to do, he said you’re angry with him lol”
ME
“And
he said that? Why would I be angry with him?”
natalie30
“I
have no clue”
ME
“I
am certainly not at all can't think where he got that from. He actually said
that?”
natalie30
“He
was talking so fast but yes he said that. I had to tell him to take a deep
breath and slow right down. I knew it was coming, just a matter of time?”
I
wasn’t angry with John, I don’t think I ever could be I just loved him warts
and all. We are all human, our time on earth is for learning and we all make
mistakes, but it’s only from making mistakes that we learn
Eventually
after a few days where he hardly said a thing, he told me what was up. Janet
and the little girl had been round at his place one evening for dinner and they
had been laughing and talking about old times. Janet started to cry and John
tried to comfort her by hugging her. She sobbed she wanted the old times back,
she wanted John back. He was hugging her and trying to comfort her he told me,
when one thing led to another and he denied going all the way making love to
her, he stopped in time, perhaps that may have been due to Janet’s little girl
waking up or perhaps maybe he really did stop himself in time. I wasn’t there I
only had John’s word for it.
john_jack01
“I
will understand if you want to break it off and you hate me now”
ME
“I
just don’t know what to say here”
john_jack01
“I
didn’t mean to do it, I’m sorry, it just happened”
ME
“I
don’t know what I am thinking and feeling right now, we had a deal you and I we
both promised if our feelings changed we would be honest with one another”
john_jack01
“I
know baby I am so very sorry, but I will understand if you don’t want to hear
from me again”
ME
“Is
that what you want? You want me to go and get back with Janet?”
john_jack01
“No,
it’s not what I want, I don’t want her back, we have a history, we talked after
it happened and both agreed it was a mistake”
ME
“I
am glad you told me”
john_jack01
“I
don’t want to loose what we have. I am so sorry. It shouldn’t have happened”
ME
“You
know I have told you so many times I am not like anyone else I love you
unconditionally, I love you enough to let you go. If that is what you want?”
john_jack01
“I
don’t want to loose you I love you Maryann, you are so special to me”
ME
“Then
you wont. I love you too Baby”
john_jack01
“I've
made you very unhappy with what I did, I expect you to be angry”
ME
“I'm
not angry, I was so sad, but you see, I love you spiritually, I love you
unconditionally, I love, all of you, the good and the bad and I love you so
much so, enough to let you go if it made you happy. Baby do you think me
strange?”
“john_jack01
“No,
I don’t”
ME
“But
you must admit I am different”
john_jack01
“Sometimes
Baby lol, but not really, I don't deserve you”
ME
“I
know but you're stuck with me lol, being an Aquarian I am known for my tenacity
lol I have missed you”
john_jack01
“Baby
I have missed you too and I love you Baby”
We
made love a bit difficult perhaps to imagine where you are thousands of miles
apart, we cammed and talked about what we were doing to one another, it was so
intense, so real then John said the strangest thing, perhaps he was beginning
to feel spirit in the way I could.
john_jack01
“Baby
it's so strange, there you are sitting naked in front of me, but I am seeing
you through different eyes. You are beautiful not just physically but it's
almost as if I can see your soul, it's so strange and weird and I don't know
how to word what I am trying to say here, you are just radiant and glowing, I
don't know what I am seeing. It feels as if you are really here with me and you
and me are sort of one, blended together. I have never felt this before ever
not even with Janet”
ME
“Shshsh!
Baby you don't have to say anything, for I sense and know what you are sensing,
knowing, seeing and feeling for you are seeing my soul and not the physical me”
It
was a very special moment for John's spirit was awakening and he was opening
up, I had touched and resonated with his soul. It was more than just cyber sex,
more than making love with someone you loved, it was blending souls as soul
mates do and it was an incredible moment for the two of us. We both cried
beautiful happy tears.
A
BOUND HEART
Love
binds fast
Hopelessly
tied
Unable
to break the chain
Fate
plays a cruel trick
My
soul is bound
I
cannot be freed
T'is
a sweet pain
The
ache is deep
And
twists and turns
In
my heart
It
had been a difficult time, if I had any sense I would have walked away. I could
not make rhyme or reason why I loved this man. I just knew I did. I knew this
was a different kind of love, not the physical kind that begins with lust but
it really was on a deeper level, and this was spiritual love where you wanted a
kindred spirit to be happy. Where you want the best for them so much so you
will do anything to see them smile. It is the kind of love a mother has for her
child, the kind of love one sibling has for another, for a best friend and for
a lover all wrapped up and bound in one package. Its very unselfish, non
judgmental, no conditions attached, no hidden agendas, totally unconditional
love: this is spiritual love.
Angel
was still leaving comments asking him to come over to her classroom, quite
deliberately I knew she was only leaving these comments to try to upset me and
frantically posting new pictures, supposedly out partying with friends. Again,
there was something odd about these pictures.
Natalie
told me not to worry about Angel, she had known her for years, she was a gold
digger, she also said she didn't have a high opinion of her and John knew she
did not like her.
John
was very attentive after that; he was pleased I had given him another chance
and things settled down. In November, he decided he was going to put his house
up for sale. It had been Janet’s and his home and it was time to move on. He
told me first before Natalie. Angel was last to know; I did find that amusing
as he posted the announcement on his page and that was how she found out about
it.
It
was not too long before he found a new place and sold the other one. John was
also worried what Janet might say and he told me, when he told her she was
upset, but it was time for him to move on. John told me he would not have
internet access for a few days until he had that connected but not to worry and
Natalie passed on messages back and forth between us during this time.
I
was really beginning to write poetry during this time, it happened by chance I
would look for poems to try to express my love for John and couldn’t find
anything that conveyed it so I began to write many of which you see in this
book.
ENTWINED
Your
eyes begged pleadingly
How
could I resist their longing
And
their teasing, their seducing
Your
lips tasted of red wine
As
they met mine
By
now I was intoxicated
In
your gaze, I was powerless
Your
hot tongue made me sizzle
As
it trailed from my undressed shoulder
Finding
its way
To
taste the sweetness of my desire
I
could not resist your seduction
You
drank in my passion
My
back arched in ecstasy
As
you demanded my body
I
gave
More
and more you stole my soul that night
I
pleaded for the mercy of release
When
at last
You
took me to a place I had never been
And
set me free
Hearing
the screams of passion in some distant place
Your
eyes melted with mine
Entwined
Things
were still much stressed at work as well as having my own marking of
assignments in my subjects I was helping mark The Caterpillar's and The
Walrus’s assignments. There was a great deal of inconsistencies in the marking
and there was a growing amount of unrest amongst the students. In all the time
I had been at the college, I had trained as a therapist myself here and come
back as a tutor, I never felt so unhappy. The college used to have such a
lovely family atmosphere it did no longer, what had been a joy, and pleasure to
go to work was becoming one long chore. Again I spoke to the principal and it
was almost as if she had disowned the place. Perhaps if she had appointed
someone ultimately in charge that knew what she was doing, things would have
been better.
I
was so glad for the Christmas break, there was so much bitching and bickering
amongst the staff by now and I knew it was going to be very stressful with the
coming exams in January. The principal had stated she wanted the exam papers
prepared in good time and we all had to work together on them. Alas, she needed
to reiterate that to a certain pair of tutors. There were also falling numbers
for the new intake I guess past students were spreading the news what the
college had become and it was common knowledge within the beauty industry
potential employers were unhappy with the standard of beauty therapists from
the college. There was a sickness within the building and I tried to tell my
boss on so many occasions what the problems were but she refused to listen. I
tried so much to help her, I had built up the Complementary therapies and it
had brought her in a great deal of money and many students were keen to join my
classes as my students always had a high pass rate in the external exams. It
was sad to see this happen to a college I loved.
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